It’s 4 am and my brain is burning

July 27, 2009 at 5:42 am (Belly Dancing, Teaching, Transformation, Yoga) (, , , , , , )

Lit. On Fire. WHOOSH. 

Can you hear it crackling?

The smoke, the heat, they keep me from sleeping.  (And it doesn’t help that there’s a tiny monster laying on my chest and his whiskers keep going up my nose.)  So there’s nothing for it but to get up and let the fire burn its course. Fire 1

I taught teaching today, one of my favorite things.  I’m kind of a pyromaniac that way… I like lighting people on fire… especially those who are going to light other people on fire. 

Have I mentioned that some of my Denver friends call me Cat?  Nothing to do with my name, or with the furry monster on my chest. 

It’s short for Catalyst…

Things are whatever they are, and they remain that way until you add a catalyst, and then things start happening.  Something chemical.  A chain reaction.  Heat, light, fire. 

WHOOSH!

Have I mentioned I love teachers?  One of the best things is teaching teachers, because once lit, they light up others.  Chain reaction.  So very cool. 

Today my students were teachers, Belly Dancing and Yoga.  The first of today’s Big Questions is one of my favorites…  Why Do You Do What You Do?  Dance?  Yoga? 

And people gave some real truths in answer: Because it’s fun; Because in it I find acceptance, of myself and others; Because I feel beautiful; Because I feel at peace; Because it is a way to create and express myself; Because I feel healthier; Because I feel better in and about my body when I do.

Because I love it.

And here’s where I need to say… No.  You don’t.  You do not love yoga, or dance. 

You think you do, but you don’t.  The “it” is not the object of your love… you do NOT love yoga or dance.

What you really love is Who You Are when you do it. 

The dance, the yoga, it is a vehicle.  It is the way, the path, the mechanism.  It is Your way, it is what is working best for you right now, and may always be what works best for you, but it is still just a tool. 

Consider this… when I taught ballroom dance for a living, nobody ever came in because they needed to learn to waltz.  They THOUGHT they needed to learn to waltz… but… did they really?  Was it that they needed a box step and a hesitation and an underarm turn to make their life complete? 

Really, I just desperately NEEEEED a box step! Pleeease!  I am not whole until I have one!

Or did they need what those moves were going to give them?   The ability to go and do something fun with their spouse? The confidence to talk to a beautiful woman and know they were going to be able to entertain her?  The knowledge and relief they would not look like fools on their wedding day?

What you really love is Who You Are and How You Feel when you do it. 

It’s like strawberries.  I say I love strawberries.  But really, is it that I love them?  Or is it that I love the sensation of their taste?  The feeling of delight that comes from looking at their shiny redness? The stimulation of feeling their smooth and stubbly brail exterior? The sweet and sour satisfaction of eating them?  What I love is the sensation of strawberries.  I am grateful for their existence, but what I love is how I experience them.

AzizaLgWhat you love about yoga, about dance, is how you experience yourself and the world and others when you do it.

So… to my teachers I say… what is it, really, that you love?

Because once you know that, you will know what and why you teach.  And then you can really teach it.

… can you hear the crackling? Feel the heat?  Smell the smoke?  I can…

Aziza

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A Question of Köçek – Men in Skirts

August 31, 2008 at 11:13 pm (Belly Dancing) (, , , , , , , )

Köçek Dancers, miniature from the Surname

Köçek Dancers, miniature from the Surname

I came across some excellent video of Köçek dancers in Turkey recently, thought I’d post a bit about them.  Köçek (say Kocheck, sometimes spelled Kocek, Kojek, Kochek) are male dancers dancing in essentially female costumes – although not exactly in drag.  The style dates from Ottoman Turkey when Köçek (male) and Çengi (female) dancers were kept as part of the court entertainers.  Both Köçek and Çengi danced in feminine style.  Beautiful young children were chosen mostly from among the non-Muslim populations (Jewish, Armenian, Greek and other conquered cultures) and were trained in the court styles of dance and music.  During much of that time both Köçek and Çengi were used as prostitutes as well as performers. 

While the Çengi only performed in private settings, the Köçek performed in public as well as in the court.  Köçek dancers were attached to the court or organized into performance companies called Kol.  These companies included musicians, singers, dancers and actors and performed a variety of styles of music, dance and entertainment.  Among the Köçek dances is a style is recorded as being seductive and done in female dress.  From The Belly Dance Book:

According to 17th century Turkish traveler Eviliya Chelebi, in 1538 there were twelve kolsin Turkey with over three thousand performers.  These troupes frequently were hired to entertain the crowds at public festivals by the dignitaries of state who organized them and could also be seen at processions and parades.  When the Sultan’s armies left for battle or returned, musicians, clowns, jugglers and dancers preceded them. 

The word Köçek comes from the Persian kuchak, “little,” “small,” or “young.”  In the Ottoman court, Köçek boys performed until they could no longer hide their beards or “lost their youthful beauty”.  Jasmin Jahal writes:

They were young boys who were sensuous, attractive, effeminate, and carefully trained in music and dance. Their dancing was sexually provocative and impersonated female dancers. It incorporated ladylike walking, finger snapping (a special two-handed finger snap), slow belly movements, suggestive gestures, acrobatics, and playing wooden clappers called calpara or, in later times, metal cymbals called zils.

Today, Köçek dancing is still seen in Turkey, although it has changed form to a more folkloric and less sexualized dance and is now done by adult men, still in skirts, beards and all.  Still, once can sometimes see it’s roots in the movement. 

Here are some clips of contemporary Köçek dancers:

This one is from “Bak Kim Dans Ediyor“… “Look, Who is Dancing!” which is the Turkish production of Dancing With The Stars. (I’ve seen video on this show of a variety of dances including oriental, Persian, lyrical, rock disco, Samba, modern Jazz, and ballroom.)  I’m not sure this is the most aesthetic version of the dance, but you’ve got to admire their enthusiasm and I especially love the cartoon BooOOyOOOYoooYoing sounds that go with the pelvic thrusts…
[youTube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9WG3WQGqjLE]

Lots more videos at the Folkloric Vodpod link http://azizasaidfolkloricbd.vodpod.com

A bit more about Köçek history, in case you’re interested in the details…

The Ottoman Empire lasted from mid 1300′s through the early 1900′s.  At some times, female performers weren’t permitted and performers like the Köçek took their place.  In other times both men and women were included in the musicians, dancers and entertainers.   In general Köçek performed in public settings and Çengi performed at private homes or social events.

A bit about the end of the dance in it’s original form, from The Belly Dance Book:

Sometimes the crowds became over enthusiastic in their admiration and on many occasions quarrels broke out among the spectators. … Unfortunately, performances often devolved into fights and riots.  These were so common that in order to put an end to the quarrels among his Jannisaries (soldiers) Sultan Mahmoud first forbade and then passed a law prohibiting the performances of Kochecks in 1857.   Many of them fled to Egypt, where they were employed by Mohamed Ali Pasha.  Ironically, twenty-three years earlier in 1834, Mohamed Ali banished the female dancers (Ghawazee) from Cairo in an attempt to keep them from the view of European men. 

There is some historical disagreement on the source of the costume.  From The Belly Dance Book, we have this:

Many Europeans… who saw male dancers, described their costume as being half male, half female:  The upper half being a shirt of some kind or a vest and the lower half what they called a petticoat.  To them, the sight of a brightly colored skirt suggested femininity.  This, again, was a cultural misunderstanding.  Ordinary men and male performers can be seen wearing outfits of this description throughout the Mediterranean and Asia.  For example, Greek soldiers, called Evzones, wore an elaborate pleated skirt and still do for special occasions.  The male dancers of Tunisia perform a dance balancing a stack of water jugs on their heads.  Their costume is the same as mentioned by Lane, a shirt witha vest and a “petticoat” which is ankle length, with a sash tied around the waist.  sometimes the skirt reaches the shinbone.  As late as 1926, there was a dagger dance performed by the Druze warriors of Syria in which they wore a large pleated skirt, used only during this dance.  Even as far away as Tibet and India, male dancers can be seen wearing a costume with a wide multicolored skirt.

Several travelers to Turkey mentioned that the female Chengis were gealous of the notoriety of the male Kocheks and imitated their dress and dances.  In miniatures of Turkish female dancers, they are shown in a dress similar to what the Egyptian Ghawazeewore.  A typical costume would be a long overcoat with flowing sleeves and baggy pants.   European drawings also show them in the single or double skirt of the Kocheks.  Eyewitnesses also mentioned that the hems of Kochecks’ skirts were weighted so that when they spun or pivoted, they flared out like a fan.  Given this evidence is is my belief that it was worn by both the male and female performers.

 And also this:

The upper part of the costume was a close fitting tunic with a short collar, which fell to mid thigh, often made of velvet, buttoned down the front and from the forearm to the wrist, held in place by a belt with a heavy clasp, or a sash.  Over the tunic (just below the belt), was a skirt made of silk or some other rich fabric.  They often wore a double skirt, the first being shorter and a different color than the second.  Underneath they wore fitted trousers, ankle high boots or slippers.  On their heads, they wore skullcaps or a fur cap called a culpack.

This complex costume came into vogue in the 15th century.  Earlier depictions show them wearing a much simpler costume, consisting  of an intricately embroidered robe (the same as men of the upper classes), tied with a sash and either a turban or a culpack on the head.

 From Wikipedia:

The youths, often wearing heavy makeup, would curl their hair and wear it in long tresses under a small black or red velvet hat decorated with coins, jewels and gold. Their usual garb consisted of a tiny red embroidered velvet jacket with a gold-embroidered silk shirt, shalvars (baggy trousers), a long skirt and a gilt belt, knotted at the back. They were said to be “sensuous, attractive, effeminate,” and their dancing “sexually provocative,” impersonating female dancers. Dancers minced and gyrated their hips in slow vertical and horizontal figure-8′s, rhythmically snapping their fingers and making suggestive gestures. Often acrobatics, tumbling and mock wrestling were also part of the act. The köçeks were available sexually, often to the highest bidder, in the passive role.

While some may argue that köçek dances, costume and persona were not necessarily effeminate or trans-gender, there is a strong Turkish cultural idea that suggests it is.  In the 1975 Turkish movie Kocek, the main character Caniko is called “Kocek” by other men, and sometimes confused for a woman.  From one analysis of the film:

Caniko is thus an aggressive and assertive young man. But even he is aware of his ambiguous sex. Whilst staring at his smooth, unblemished face in the mirror he threatens to cut himself (a form of punishment a man inflicts on a woman for disobedience) if he doesn’t obey his desires to look more like a man. As Caniko, the protagonist is restless, frustrated, unhappy. An irrepressible desire he has is to dance. In the streets he dances; in the tavern he dances; on tables he dances. Whilst watching a belly dancer with his male friends he is disturbed. Here Caniko is the spectator, not the spectacle. He usurps the female dancer and becomes the spectacle by starting to dance in front of his friends. By attracting the male gaze he takes on female form. In his discussion of Jacques Lacan and Laura Mulvey, Madan Sarup writes: The male subject is the imagined source of the gaze and the female subject is the imagined recipient of the gaze. Indeed, in our culture, voyeurism is the active or ‘masculine’ form of the scopophilic drive (pleasure in looking at another person as an erotic object), while exhibitionism is the passive or ‘feminine’ form of the same drive(1992: 158).

So Caniko is confused, or rather society sees him as a tangle, both physically and scopophilically. His desire is to be a man who is gazed upon. Yet, society will only allow the woman to be the recipient of the gaze. Even when he isn’t dancing, Caniko connotes what Laura Mulvey calls “to-be-looked-at-ness” (1985: 309). Caniko, whether he likes it or not, has an “erotic impact” on men. It isn’t necessarily that they think he’s a woman and therefore desire him. It is more likely they desire him and thus think of him as a woman.

Turkish culture recognizes the Köçek as effeminate men.  Interestingly, while contemporary Islam views homosexuality with great prohibition, Middle Eastern cultures historically do not.  There is a multi-gender view that has subtle gradations.. there are masculine men, effeminate men, men who wish to take on women’s roles, and feminine women, masculine women, and women who wish to take on men’s roles.  The idea of “homosexual” as used in the west (a sort of one-size-fits-all label) doesn’t really apply.  A man who wishes to be desired by other men is not seen as the same as as one who desires other men… they fall in different places on the social and acceptability scale.  There is apparently a rich resource of traditional songs, poems and literature that has either been ignored or mistranslated over the years.  Here’s an example from Abu Nuwas, a Persian/Arabic poet of the late 700′s as translated in Carousing with Gazelles:

The Lovers

    Blessed indeed are these two loving friends; They sleep through the night, in an embrace without end.
    They have loved each other since birth, so they say; With strong, equal loves, alike all the way.
    When Love came to them, they told him what to do: “Do the right thing, Lobe and split Love in two!”
    So Love split himself, in two equal parts; Hard work! But no thwarting those strongly-knit hearts.
    Their two souls became one soul, and then; That one soul lived in the two loving men.
    These two don’t quarrel; they avoid any strife; They guard their love as more precious than life.

Aziza

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Hypnotic belly dance

August 24, 2008 at 6:32 pm (Belly Dancing) (, , , , , )

Mesmerize: to dazzle or overcome or induce a trance using animal magnetism
Hypnotic, entrancing, mesmerizing… yep, that’s what we want to be.  Tribal especially works to be that way.   However I discovered today that we’ve been going about it all wrong…
We thought it was done like this:
or like this
but I’ve discovered we were wrong… here’s how it’s done:
and in case you need a little help with that…
- Aziza

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It’s an All-New me

August 24, 2008 at 3:49 pm (Belly Dancing) (, , , )

Ok, well maybe I’m the same, but I’ve updated the Aziza Sa’id page… pop over and have a look.

Aziza

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First Class Belly Dancer… or How to Make a Fire

August 23, 2008 at 3:40 pm (Belly Dancing, Transformation) (, , , , )

“First Class Belly Dancer”… or would that be… “Welcome to your First Class, Bellydancer…”.

I was poking around and came across Lex’s story of her first class, it made me think of mine.

Do you remember your first class? I do.. that was how many years ago? More than thirty anyway. I remember I wasn’t going without a friend, and it took a number of tries to convince someone to go with me. I remember I was excited, agitated, hugely intimidated, a bit short of flat out terrified. I remember being as small as possible waiting for the class to start, and watching the other students hang about. I remember looking for the other newbies like me, hoping I’d be less visible among them. I remember being sure I was going to embarrass myself, what with being so completely an uncoordinated geek. I remember finding a spot in the back where no one would be behind me, no one could see me as I tried to follow along.

I remember the teacher walked like watered silk in summer breeze.

I remember the music, the sound, the feel of it, George Abdo’s voice on my skin and in my bones… I remember is set me on fire.

I remember nothing moved, nothing worked, and I couldn’t even begin to communicate with half the parts the teacher wanted us to move. The idea of having those disconnected parts even answer to me, much less dance seemed remote beyond hoping for. I remember I had to fight for every inch of every move. Not that it mattered, really… once I was on fire, there was simply nothing else to do about it. Work and learn or become a pile of ash.

Thirty three years later George Abdo still lives in my bones. I can still feel the touch of his voice on my skin.

It’s part of why I teach, and why I still teach beginners. Because every once in a while you get to be there when someone catches fire.

Sometimes they go up WHOOSH all at once and sometimes they smoke and smolder for a while before they burst out in flames. Sometimes you know when they step off the cliff into obsession, and sometimes you see it come on gradually an inch and an inch and another inch until they’re all in.

Sometimes you get to see it transform who they are.

Slowly, a day a class a performance at a time you see who-they-were turn into who-they-want-to-be. Sometimes you see them transmute into someone they never even imagined. For some it is a brand new self, a brand new world. For some it is coming home.

I had a conversation with a student recently… we were talking about the difficulty of getting perspective on yourself. She’s come a long journey in a rather short time. I asked if she remembered who she was when she started that journey, if she knew that person, if she was anything like her now. She said she no longer knew that not-so-long-gone girl, and a little shudder told me what she thought of her. Not a happy thought, not a peaceful one.

Be gentle with that girl, I said, be grateful to her… she’s the one that got you here. She’s the one that took that first step on the road that brought you here. She took the second step, and the third. She may no longer exist, but she is worthy of your love and gratitude, she gave you *you*.

I think about my past and the lives I’ve lived and it seems there have been many… so many women I once was and no longer am… they seem quite distant from my life now, women I barely know. A daisy chain of evolution leading to me. Hardly seems so many lives could fit in so short a span of time.

Maybe it’s a bit of alchemy, the magic of transforming one thing into another, from something coarse and raw to something more refined. The baser metal in the crucible, heated until it changes forms, from stone and ore to silver pool to molten red like a liquid sun. The impurities burning off as flame and smoke, the purer thing remains. And then there’s the alchemist’s real magic, transmuting it into a higher form. Out of lead, comes gold.

The fire that heats that crucible is one we build and tend ourselves. We carry the fuel, tend the embers, stoke the flames, man the bellows. We can choose the fuel and the rate of burn, but once in a while it comes as a surprise. Sometimes we simply catch fire. My fire is built of love and loss and stubbornness and choosing the steeper, shorter, rougher path. I’ve stoked it with worldly work, and by diving into deep spiritual waters from time to time. But the part of the flame that never seems to burn down is this dance. Sometimes raging, sometimes embers banked down to a softer glow, but always burning, George Abdo’s voice burning in my bones.

Perhaps one day that alchemist’s fire will transform us into gold.

A little note to Lex… Your teacher is right, love who you are now.  Love this girl who has put her foot – your foot - on the path to who you will be.

Aziza

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Fifi and fifty others dance Khaliji

August 23, 2008 at 11:09 am (Belly Dancing) (, , , , , , , )

or would that be… Khaleegy… Khaleege… Khaleji… Khaleejy…

anyway, starting with the Fifi Abdo Khaliji Video and going on for many many more… check the VodPod link. 

Also men dancing khaliji style and more Ouled Nail videos.

happy viewing!

- Aziza

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Penguin Belly Dancers and the Ouled Nail

August 20, 2008 at 1:04 am (Belly Dancing) (, , , , )

It’s a silly thing, but enjoy the Penguin belly dancer

For something more serious, Shimmy TV.

But if you’re intersted in something really cool, check out the Ouled Nail… part of my inspiration for this:

Aziza with Turkish Spoons
Aziza with Turkish Spoons

is this:

Ouled Nail - French Postcard

Pop Quiz:  What contemporary music is from the home of the Ouled Nail? (answer below)

More info and photos of the Ouled Nail from the Belly Dance Museum ( part 1 / part 2 )

More about them from Jasmin Jahal and Sherazzah (good photos).

And some of their music, photos and dance:

And the answer to the quiz: What contemporary music is from the home of the Ouled Nail? 

They’re from Algeria, home of Rai music… Khaled (Aisha),  Rachid Taha, Cheb Mami.

Khaled:

Rachid Taha:

Cheb Mami:

check the VodPod list for more.

- Aziza

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Belly Dance Video Pod

August 17, 2008 at 4:32 pm (Belly Dancing, Performance) (, , , , )

I’ve become a Pod Person… IPod, VodPod, I’ve been Podified.   I have to tell you it makes me a bit nervous when you consider all the existing pod references in my head…

Pod Chairs, Egg Pod Chairs (yeah, baaaby), Alien Space Pods, and Alien Space Prison Pods. Even Alien Pod People you can grow yourself.  Not to mention the Pod people from Invasion of the Body Snatchers and the more contemporary soulless urban pod person

So… Do Not Worry, All Is Fine.  I’m only here to VodPod you…

Ok, really, there’s no body snatchers.  What there is, is a collection of belly dance videos from places like YouTube, Google Video and DailyMotion.  Mostly these are belly dance, but I’ve included a few that are other dance forms, and the occasional one for comic relief.  They’re not in any particular order yet, just what I’ve added lately.  Eventually I’ll get to organizing them… in the meantime, browse and enjoy.

From time to time, I’ll post a special one up directly, here are a couple to get you started…

I love this but don’t know much about it…

Dina in Melaya Leff (gotta love the dingle balls on her dress)

An Arabic man who is pure pleasure to watch

A dance based on Quan Yin, the Chinese Goddess of Mercy

and finally Sharon Kihara… ooo so exotic…
MySpaceTV Videos: Sharon Kihara

For more, see the VodPod link on the right, or pod yourself here.

Enjoy, Aziza

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Is that weird?

August 17, 2008 at 7:40 am (Belly Dancing, Performance, Transformation) (, , , , , , )

It’s a question that comes up a lot.  Sometimes in the form of “I want to use this song to dance to… is that weird?”  Sometimes it’s “I want to borrow from this style”, or “I don’t want to dance for people I know”, or “I think I’d like to perform”, or “I don’t want to tell the people I work with…”  Sometimes it’s about an emotional reaction to a piece of music, or liking or disliking a song.  Sometimes it’s about trying to figure out how the dance fits in your life.

So let me answer the question for you… but the real question.  It’s not “is this weird?” But “am I weird?” 

The answer is Yes.  You are.  You’re weird.

Ok, take a deep breath… you’re weird.  We’re both weird, and there’s no getting around it, so you might as well embrace it.  Once you do, you’ll feel much better, I promise.

This afternoon, a friend and I were looking at websites for universities for a project she’s doing.  We were trying to get a sense of their individual presentation styles, of how they identified themselves and set themselves apart, of what they were doing to attract students and make someone interested in choosing their school over others.  The more schools we looked at, the more we realized they all looked the same… frighteningly so.  Like they’d all been designed by the same person.  Like they’d all been drinking the same Kool-Aid.  It was a little creepy.   I started thinking about why they would do that, every single one trying to look like the others… herd mentality, no one daring to stand out, no one setting themselves apart.

No one daring to be different, lest they look weird.

Rather gave me the willies, actually, everything so uniform from state to state, coast to coast, every one almost exactly alike… 

Did you ever notice that sometimes when you go to a big show, it seems that after a while the dancers all look alike?  Egyptian after Egyptian, tribal after tribal, after a while they begin to run together.  Sometimes a dancer’s look stands out, or her costume, or more rarely her performance, but far too often they begin to blur, one so much like another.

Did you ever notice when someone new and interesting becomes the rage, how everyone begins to look like them?  Some dancer appears on the circuit and soon enough everyone looks like her.  For a while, it was 15 new students starting a week, every one of them asking “can you teach me to dance like Shakira?”  Now everyone wants to be Rachel Brice. 

Now don’t get me wrong, I love Shakira and appreciate the boost she gave the dance, and I think Rachel Brice is brilliant.  But the world only needs one of each.

And because there is only one of each, they are, by definition, Weird.  Unusual.  Outside the norm.  Not like everyone else.

I mean, think about it, when was the last time you saw someone who was completely, absolutely, thoroughly middle of the road vanilla typical normal… did it make your pupils blow wide open and your heart beat fast?  Did you say, “Oooooh!  I want to be just like THAT!”?

I’m going to guess not.

I’m going to guess not because I already know you’re weird… after all, you’re taking BELLY dance classes, for gosh sake!  There’s proof enough right there. 

So you might as well get used to the idea… seeing as it’s already true, and it’s too late to get out of it.

Ok, now here’s the good part… you can’t be better without being different.  And you certainly can’t be unique without being different.  You’re already a mile down the weird road just by taking up belly dancing, don’t wimp out now and try to be like everybody else.

Remember the Dr. Pepper commercials that went, “Don’t be one of the crowd, be a Pepper!”?  Don’t be one of the crowd, be one of the… er… crowd.  Those commercials always made my head explode.

So I say embrace your weirdness.  Find the weird that is uniquely, precisely, completely you.  Discover the ways you are like those you admire, but also discover the ways you are different from everyone else.  Become the complete constellation of yourself, the unique combination of choices that is truly only you.

The more you can find your unique way with the music, find the dance that is authentic to you, the better your dance will be.  It’s called integrity… how much a thing is consistent with itself.  When you embrace your likenesses and your weirdnesses with equal enthusiasm, when you trust that weird is an important and valuable part of who you are, then you are on your way to being fully, freely, actively and completely yourself.  And that self will be interesting to watch on stage.

It’s like Sungha Jung.  He’s 11.  He’s been playing the guitar for two years.  He takes a couple of days to learn a song to performance quality.  He composes his own music.  He creates his own arrangements. He plays with the soul of someone four times his age. And frankly, that’s just weird.  In a truly wonderful way.

Enjoy these videos of him embracing his weirdness.  Links to more about him below.

Here’s to the truly, deeply, wonderfully weird.  Aziza

Sungha Jung playing Manha Do Carnaval

Sungha Jung playing Kiss From A Rose (Seal)

More videos: Sungha Jung on YouTube

Sungha’s YouTube channel: Sungha Jung

 

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Bilge and the Belly of a Dancer

August 9, 2008 at 11:38 pm (Belly Dancing, Performance, Transformation, Uncategorized) (, , , , )

Bilge.  It’s about bilge.  Its the water that washes over the gunwales, sloshes over the decks, runs down in the cracks between the carefully tended bulwarks, sweeping along the detritus, the litter, the discarded and unnoticed scraps.  It seeps and trickles and drips carrying the untended chaff and refuse, the spent engine oil and sweat and dirt down into the belly of the ship.  There it gathers, that bilge water, in that lowest chamber, the smelly, murky runoff. 

<< Whatever IS she on about? >> you ask…

Bilge water.  And green living. 

<< Ah, it’s about recycling, then?  Alternative power sources? >>

Well, yes.  And about dance.  It’s about why we dance, and what dance is made of.  It’s about recycling bits of our experience into performance.  It’s definitely about alternative power sources.

So… bilge.  It’s that mucky, oily, smelly water that’s sloshing around in the belly of a ship.  It gets there because sometimes the water is too deep, the waves too high, the rain too heavy, the storm too strong to keep it out.  Sometimes the waves crash over onto the deck.  It runs down in the cracks because the defences are not water tight.  It accumulates in the belly of the ship, building up, adding weight, pulling the ship lower into the waterline.  If enough builds up, the ship can lose it’s buoyancy, can be swamped and sink.  It’s mass sloshes and rolls counter to the ship’s movement.  It interferes with maneuvering, it’s momentum trying to carry the ship on it’s previous course, resisting the effort to turn.  With enough bilge, the momentum can roll the ship if it tries to change direction fast.

It’s that mucky, oily, smelly emotion that’s sloshing around in the belly of your life.  It gets there because sometimes the water of your life is too deep, the waves too high, the storm too strong to keep it out.  It runs down in the cracks of your awareness because your defences are not water tight.  It acumulates, building up, adding weight, destryoing your buoyancy.  If not tended it can pull you lower in the water until you swamp.  It’s momentum can make it difficult to change, pulling you on in the same course, resisting your efforts to turn.

<< So, you’re saying I need a bilge-pump? >>

Perhaps.  Or maybe you just need to see that mucky, oily, smelly bilge water as the great gift and resource that it is… 

Think of it as Alternative Fuel For Belly Dancers.

Out of that bilge water, you can pull the power for performance, for power on stage, and for transformation. 

Ever notice how sometimes a song will tap into an emotion, something that comes up strong and out of nowhere?  That’s the bilge water rising up, carried on the music.  That’s some emotion, some event, some bit of your story that’s been washed down into the belly of the ship.  It may have been washed away by the water on the decks, swept clear enough you’ve forgotten it was ever there.  And yet, there it is, still sloshing around, washed back into experience by a tremor of qanun, a whisper of ney or the rumble of drums.  A feeling so strong it shortens your breath, takes your voice, brings tears you barely catch, fills your chest with a tension or an ache or a swelling sense of the rising feeling… all brought on by the simplest of things… a sound.

What power there is in such a simple thing.  The breath of a musician through a reed, the touch of his fingers on a string and up rises that feeling…

What magic there is in being a human being… to be able to react with such power to such a simple thing. 

And what a gift it is to a dancer, that rise of feeling, that momentum, it’s fuel for movement and performance.  If you can take that rise and turn it into movement, if you can stay with that, ride that, be swept along in it as you dance, your performance will be transformed.  The integrity and power of that submerged emotion can be remarkable.

If you want to create a feeling in your audience, create it in yourself.  If you want to move them, be moved yourself.  Nothing creates feeling like actually feeling.

That bilge water, it’s potent stuff. 

And as an added green-living bonus, the more bilge water you recycle into performance, the less you have to carry around.  Every ounce burned in performance lightens your load, raises your buoyancy, lets you float a little higher in the water, adds to your maneuverability.  The more of the oily, smelly, murky stuff you feed into performance, the stronger your performance is and the lighter your life is… now that’s recycling at it’s best.

So here’s to belly dancing, and bilge water.

- Aziza

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